The same thing , keep on repeat in my life ♥

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All my life I have been good at hiding my feelings.

I am suffering through some very painful heartache , and pain.

It is not easy to deal with at all.

However , I put on a smile , and assure everyone that I am going to be okay. ♥

So no one worries.

I do this , not because I want to ,

but because I feel like I have to do it ,

In order to prevent myself from getting hurt again.

I figure that if I act like I am happy :) ,

No one can get that close to my heart , and break it again.

I dont want that to happen.

If people knew how bad my heart was aching ,

and how much pain I carry around in my heart ,

and dont share with everyone.


Everyday ,

Every night ,

I sleep early , dont cause Im tired.

Im just dont want to make myself think about you again.

Its too hurt.

When I wake up , I do my best to put on a mask to everyone ,

and act as okay as I possibly can.

I hope one day , I will be able to lean on others ( with you ) ♥ ,

and stay strong , however I just have a feeling that I cant always do that.

♥
For now

how I feel

the only thing I can do is to be okay

and to deal with it ALL !
♥


Someone told me , ( thinking too much causes problems ! )

I think is :)

Its easy to say , but hard to do.

Maybe Im just not BRAVE enough.

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I just hope YOU can understand it ♥